Tuesday, 12 February 2008

TTC update*

*for those of you in non-baby-making-land or easy-peasy-baby-making-land, TTC is an abbreviation for Trying To Conceive
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And so the quest to conceive continues. I am now on Day 16. The Dragon Pills have started working, me thinks. Bloated, cranky, uncomfortable, pms-type cramps... these are all the order of the day right now. Fun fun fun. And we still have a few weeks of this before we'll know if it's worked.
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I must be honest and say that I'm secretly SO HOPING it works, but trying my hardest not to think about it too much, lest I am too disappointed if (when) it doesn't. Which is probably the more likely eventuality. But I'm trying not to think about that either.
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It's hard not to think though.
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I feel a twinge and think "OOOOH, maybe I'm pregnant!". Or I get a nasty taste in my mouth and I wonder "could that be the metallic taste many preggo's experience?". Or I just lie in bed at night with my hand on my lower abdomen, radiating warmth and love at My Eggs That I Actually Despise, willing them to just shape up, pull up their socks and be good for once - just produce one good egg that a very fit little sperm can find. Or three good eggs. I'll take as many as I can get. Even if they come all at once.
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I was all hoppy-skippy-jumpy-happy at the start of this cycle. I just KNEW it would work. And now the dreaded Two Week Wait has settled in. In which all manner of dark thoughts of doom and gloom lurk.
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Grrr.
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Not easy this Waiting Waiting Waiting Waiting Waiting Game.
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Quite sucky really.
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And to make me even sadder... my sister and her hubby and my Little Ethan Who I Love are moving to New Zealand and plan to be there before the end of this year... and being the poor relatives that we are, who knows when we'll be able to fly out to them for visits? Very sad indeed.


5 comments:

Kelly said...

I hope it works. I won't pretend to know how you feel. But, I can still pray for you to get pregnant!!!

We have friends that live in Dunedin (south island).

Bernie said...

HI Char

All the best my friend. Praying that it works for you this time.

Bern

NB: We're still investigating the Oz thing...so you'll have to make a plan to come visit down under in years to come...

Rita said...

Please, Please, Please let this be the time for Char. Please Lord, let it be so according to your will.
Amen
Rita

Hope said...

I PRAY THIS WORKS FOR YOU. MAKES ME THINK OF ME SO MUCH. FOR EIGHT YEARS MY HUBBY AND I WENT THRU ALL YOU GUYS DID. (EXPENSIVE EXERCISE - BUT WELL WORTH IT) THEN WE MET THE MOST WONDERFUL GYNAE FROM DURBS
DR HANSEN - GUESS WHAT? I NOW HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRLS. 5 AND 2 YEARS OLD. KEEP HOLDING ON!!!

Praise and Coffee said...

I've been thinking about ya!

We had 3 kids no problem and then 14 years later after hubby had a reversal we tried for 2 years- well it's been almost 4 now but we quit trying when we adopted Lauren- and I did all the same things you are doing. I had that metallic taste at least a half a dozen times but now pregnancy...funny when I had my 1st 3 kids I never had that taste in my mouth.

Do you temp and everything? It's enought to drive a woman crazy, I know. I never had any idea what the initials S-H-O-W were before I couldn't get pregnant. Ugh.

Hugs,
Sue